keep moving

kalo gue pikir pikir lagi, judul postingan kali ini aneh ya! Keep moving, yaiyalah moving secara gue moving class -,- aa apa deh gue!

setelah sekian lama ngga post karena kakak gue menyabotase internet, akhirnya bisa ngblog jugaa. Oia sebenernya itu judul bukan maksudnya moving class tapi gue akan terus move on dari diaa yang namanya tak boleh di sebut. Capek juga lama lama kayak gini. Lagi pula bentar lagi kan gue (insyaallah) akan lulus SMA. it means my past will be over too.

Akhir akhir ini saya sering sakit. Minggu ini aja dua kali ngga masuk sekolah. Menderita penyakit infeksi saluran kemih memang ngga enak. Saran ya buat yang cewek, hati hati dengan penyakit ini karena ini menghantui hampir semua cewek ;)

tidak menyangka waktu berjalan begitu cepaaat dan sudah mau puasaa. Pengen cepet cepet lebaran aja boleh ngga? haha puasa aja belom. Tapi gue berniat puasa tahun ini akan bersungguh-sungguh. Ingin benar benar berubaaah. Gue merasa banyak perubahan negatif yang terjadi tahun ini. Terus jadi sering nangis ngga jelas lagi. Puasa tahun ini harus membawa perubahan besar untuk hidup gue. Doakaan saya ya!

Awalnya gue berpikir untuk tidak menulis hal ini di sini. Tetapi saya ingin semua masalah selesai.
I wanna say to someone who will you know. I wanna clear our problem. At the begining, we didn't had any problem, right? I do not know when, but now I feel like we have a problem. If it's because of him, i think it's not the right reason to be an enemy. I never hate you, even say something bad about you. I never try to take him from you. No, never! What you've read now, in this page is just what i thought. He does not know about it. And i never try to tell him, even i do not want him to know this. if now you hate me, i dont blame you. it's your right. But now, i say sorry for all the things i've done to you. I dont want him. I just wanna be his friend, its enough. I know his love is yours. So, starting from now, i hope we dont have any problem again. Last word for you, Sorry. Although i dont know who did wrong. hope you can be with him again :)

And now, let's begin our new life! yeaah! Btw, lagi nyari lagu baru nih. Bosen sama lagu di handphone. Ada rekomendasi kah?

Hari ini sampe sini ajaa, mau ngerjain tugas bio dan fis dulu.

It is over, my dear

God never make me feel so bad
God never let me down
God will bring me up
God always know my best

And my best is leave my past.
You can get him if that's what you want now. So you do not need to blame me like that. I know you do. I never know you, I just know your name. I know all of your friends support you, but I do not care. Even my friends also do the same thing. I just want to focus with my study. I do not care about your bloody words.
I never try to want to know about you. I never wish something bad about you. I never said something that can make you cry or anything else. That's what i thought. I never asked you to read it. Why i must make an enemy just because of him? He is not the one and only in my life. He is not the most special 'thing' in my life. I can live without him. And if you can not do the same, I will give him to you.

No word to him and no word to her.

One thing that you have to know,
I NEVER BLAME YOU, but you blame me...

Good luck for you! and Good luck for me :)
Wish all the best for you.