Mimpi itu

Malam itu, entah hari apa, aku terbangun. Dada ini terasa sesak, aku ingin bernafas secara normal, tetapi seperti ada batu besar yang mengganjal. Rasanya malam itu tidak hujan, tetapi aku merasa dingin. Ada rasa takut yang sangat amat terasa. Bukan rasa takut akan sesuatu hal yang akan ku lihat, tetapi rasa takut akan sesuatu yang akan ku hadapi dan yang baru saja ku rasakan.

Malam itu terasa aneh. Tiba-tiba saja aku terbangun. Rasa takut menyelimutiku dadaku. Aku berusaha untuk mengabaikkannya. Aku takut itu hanya sugesti. Kali ini berbeda, rasa takut itu tak kunjung hilang. Sambil memegang dadaku, aku terus berucap, "Astagfirullahaladzim." Mulutku terus beristigfhar karena hanya itu yang bisa ku lakukan.

Aku berusaha melupakan rasa takut itu. Ku ingat bahwa aku belum belajar untuk ulangan. Saat itu waktu menunjukkan pukul 1 malam. Aku terus belajar hingga jam menunjukkan pukul setengah tiga pagi. Mataku terasa berat. Aku memutuskan untuk tidur. Tetapi rasa takut itu kembali melanda.


Tuhan, ada apa dengan dadaku?
Kenapa terasa sesak?
Aku takut untuk tidur.
Aku takut,
aku tidak bisa membuka kedua mataku esok pagi.

(aku terdiam sejenak, menenangkan pikiran dan mencoba bernafas)

Tuhan, aku pasrah
Kalau esok pagi aku tidak bisa menyambut dunia, semua terserah padaMu.


Saat itu juga, aku pun tertidur..

My Mom Only Had One Eye

This story, i found in google :)


My mom only had one eye. I hated her... She was such an embarrassment.
She cooked for students & teachers to support the family
There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came to say hello to me.
I was so embarrassed. How could she do this to me?!
I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out.

The next day at school one of my classmates said, "EEEE, your mom only has one eye!"
I wanted to bury myself. I also wanted my mom to just disappear.
So I confronted her that day and said, " If you're only gonna make me a laughing stock, why don't you just die?!!!"

My mom did not respond!!!
I didn't even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because I was full of anger.
I was oblivious to her feelings…
I wanted out of that house..
So I studied real hard, got a chance to go to Singapore to study.


Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own. I had kids of my own. I was happy with my life.
Then one day, my mother came to visit me. She hadn't seen me in years and she didn't even meet her grandchildren!
When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her.

I screamed at her, "How dare you come to my house and scare my children!"GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!"

And to this, my mother quietly answered, "Oh, I'm so sorry.
I may have gotten the wrong address," and she disappeared out of sight.


One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house.

So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip…

After the reunion, I went to the old shack just out of curiosity!!!
My neighbors said that she died.
I did not shed a single tear...!!!


They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have…
"My dearest son, I think of you all the time..
I'm sorry that I came to Singapore and scared your children.
I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion.
But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you.
I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up.
You see... When you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye.
As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with one eye.
So… I gave you mine…

I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye.
With my love to you…
…Your mother…