Who is he?

He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named is not my ex. He is someone that I like and love so much. No one knows about him. I called my ex with 'him'.

He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named is someone that can make me relax, laugh, be loved, understand, and everything. He tell me everything that I do not and maybe never know. He can wait me for a long time without feeling bored. He can teach me about my study. He can motivate me. He can be friend. He never be protective.

But now He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named was gone. I mean, not die. He was gone because someone took his soul, his part that i loved so much. He went by leaving our imaginary friend, tinki. Tinki always smile and never look sad, just like him.

Yea, he never looked disappointed in front of me. He always smiled. And always said, "You can do everything you want. Why? Because I'm here to support you." I could not say anything when he said that. I just could smile and feel more comfort. I haven't said anything yet.

And now I wanna say something to you, "If you're here, I will never let you go for twice. And I will believe in my self that I can do everything."

He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named is someone who give me a lot of happines on my fifteen birthday.

Cheers :)

PS : Don't say you know him without asking me first because actually, you don't really know me.

Dream of Dream

An odd dream woke me up this morning. My body was wet because of my sweat. Hell yeah! It was very odd and never thought I would have a dream like that. In my dream, I met He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named. I didn't really know where I was maybe in the car. Yeah, in the car! He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named said, "I'm so tired. I wanna sleep." I didn't really care about him so i just read my book again. His feet was in my thigh and his head was in another side. Something that make me confused is I let his feet in my thigh -,-

A few minutes later, He was asleep. And I still read my book, I didn't know the title of the book because I did not really read that book. I was looking at him. He was so cute while sleeping. I guess, I was crazy at that time. Okey, back to the story. While sleeping, suddenly someone was walking to our car. I woke him up and said, "There's someone walking to us." He did not really woke up. He just chnged his position. Now his deah was in my thigh. How dare him! But I did not do anything, something that i did not understand. I did not read that book again, I was just seeing to in front of the car. We were alone in the car. There's no driver or someone. I let him sleeping in thigh and suddenly, he did something that make me shocked. I could not tell you what he did but it was not something porn haha of course! And after that, I woke up because that dream felt soo real.

I went from my bed and pray because it was morning. This dream could make me feel happy but it was soo odd.

Cheers :)

He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named

Tonight, I feel like I go back to two years ago. I don't know the date or the month. One thing I know for sure, I'm still with him, He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named.
We ever promised to be together forever. No one knew about eternity. Only God knew about that. And I knew it wasn't a lasting promise

"I promise. If our relationship end before my birthday, I will buy a lot of taffy." he smiled at me.

And my relationship was over before his birthday. It was my fault. I never gave him a chance and now i realize why he doesn't give me a chance too. There was no taffy until now. He ever gave me chocholate and I was so happy when he gave it to me.

Nine months passed and he said, "Sorry, I can not wait you anymore. I find another girl. I love her and I wanna be with her. She's the one I love now."

I didn't feel anything at that time. I only said, "Oh, it's okey." I thought it would be okey without him, My life still go on. I didn't realize He was the one who cared to me and stayed beside me. I couldn't do anything. He was hers.

So sorry for all the thing that i've done to you. I'm so stupid to give you to her. If you read this posting, one thing that you have to know. On January, I wanna tell you the reason we break up. But it's too late.



ILY, yanita :)